The Hope

beyond the hopium

It seems challenging these days to feel there is anything meaningful to say. For to find meaning in some analysis is to imply there is meaning in whatever manifestation one is analyzing. And I for one find genocide and child abuse trafficking networks and idiotic wars based on lies utterly meaningless. Maybe I should delve into the new covid variant the media is talking up, but it seems like the same sh*t.

I was ready to leave the USA 13 years ago, but decided to invest in activism from within. After an initial powerful victory, it has been mostly a wasteland of failure and impossibility. I am not going to set myself on fire like Aaron Bushnell, but sometimes I wonder what there is to really do anymore.

I will venture west next week to try to access better holistic care for my messed up shoulder. It will allow me to reconnect with old friends, practice with my qigong teacher, and hopefully hike a few canyons also. I cringe at having to reckon with the distances that have grown between me and my liberal friends out there. But I need to bust out of the anti-social prison I have been in, one way or another, before I become just a bitter old man.

Truth is I am full of hate. I hate what this country has long been, but at least there used to be a diversity of values for which it stood. There was still something of a moral battle going on when I was born in 1963, when Kennedy was waking up in his last year to a moral purpose, and King had a dream he shared. That was so very long ago now it is hard to imagine such leadership.

Now it is Epstein class rule - a bunch of murderous pedophiles trying to install a control grid on the rest of us. Somehow they can kidnap Maduro and kill Khameini, but no one is able to manage a single arrest of anyone filmed sexually abusing children on the thousands of hours of video tape held by the FBI. One doorway to power and wealth is aparently to accept being compromised in such ways. It is thus not outrageous to imagine that this is the root of the current insane war on Iran, which is a perfect distraction at least.

And yes Israel is woven throughout the corruption in every way, and it is disgusting that Christianity has been butchered into this monstrous Zionist narrative along the way. This may be the most blood-boiling thing I have ever heard:

However it must compete with the leader of the free world refusing to remove the ball cap he was merchandising during the return of the remains of the first Americans to be killed in Iran. It echoes back to Trump having called such fallen soldiers “suckers and losers” in the not-so-distant past. I don’t know how any conservative of any stripe can still support this treasonous a-hole.

Does it matter? Is there any way the US survives the moral onslaughts which are certain to finish off the last pretenses of the republic. Perhaps it is the end of time, where we see how the apocalypse chapter plays out. Or perhaps we just have more obliteration of ecosystems and indigenous babies, as in Gaza. Echoing the centuries-long project of exterminating native people and cultures throughout the Earth.

When we we ever learn?

All I can think of is as a farmer - of all the fucking work it is going to be to clean this shit the fuck up when these fuckheads are finally one way of another extinguished. Amid the ugliness of a post-nuclear world, while trying to bear and raise a new generation before we all perish from radiation and/or a destroyed planetary ecosystem. Maybe there will be an indigenous or re-indigenizing pocket of humans here or there with a mycoremediation lab or a path through to the next world.

That is about the hope I have left.